Tomorrow isn't promised. Such a small phrase that packs a powerful punch. Even as I am reminded lately of how short and precious life can be I often find myself forgetting the little things. I asked for a "big girl" camera for Christmas and I got one. So now I am making it my goal to use it. To over use it. To make people sick of seeing pictures of my son and my life. I want to be able to look back on my journey and remember the little things. I want Bennett to be able to look back and see the memories he and I made before he could remember. Because he may never know it but all these little things he and I do everyday mean the world to me. I want tangible imagines for us both to remember. To cherish.
Wednesday, January 7, 2015
Monday, January 5, 2015
Stress less..overall happier and healthier me!
I stress. I stress about everything and anything. I stress about work. I stress about money. I stress about school. I stress about Bennett. I stress about my relationship. I stress about myself. I stress about everything. This said stressing has caused some problems over the years...nasty dirty habits like nail biting and jaw clenching. Stressing is pointless. It changes nothing and nine times out of then I am stressing about something that never actually becomes an issue. I vow to myself and the poor soles who take the blunt force of my stressing that I will in fact learn to stress less and better deal with stress.
Which brings me to my next point. I want to be healthier. Right right a new years resolution to lose weight?! Who ever hear of such a thing! But I promise you that is not what I'm doing. I'm less worried about the number on the scale and more so focused on the way I feel about myself. I want more out of life like being able run around with the boys and not be tired or find cute clothes without the struggle of it not being in my size. So far so good. I'm making better choices and started doing yhis satanic workout called insanity. And to prove I'm so focused on being healthy, I started the program and didn't get on a scale and still haven't. I just want to feel good for me. I couldn't care less what a scale says.
I'll tell you kids what attitude really is everything. I have been trying to be more positive and appreciative of the blessed life I have and when you focus on that and enjoy everyday....life is beautiful!
Saturday, January 3, 2015
Better Mommy-ing
I'll admit that sometimes I'm guilty to just getting though the days by keeping Bennett, my year old son, busy and quiet. He's a bit of a handful and always has been. I'm trying to remind myself that he's only going to be this age once and his little mind is absorbing everything. I need to spend more time with him, playing, reading and helping him grow and learn. Other things can wait, other things are less important. This is the time where it's important for him to learn, explore and right now he needs me to help him do that. There's some many things I can do with him to help him. I want to start setting time aside everyday to do things with him that help his development. He deserves more from me, he's here to learn and grow and not just get through each day.
That's something else I want to be better at. I need to learn to appreciate each day. Not just get through the day to get to the weekends or to whatever but appreciate each day and all the little things in it.
I am feeling so positive about the future and about the choices I am making.